Time is an illusion; one for the creatives.

So, I’m sitting in the hotel restaurant the beach right next to me. I can hear the waves and practically taste the ocean on my lips. Waiting for my Sri Lankan brunch to arrive and considering I only worked just a few hours to get here and then had 28hrs in this cute beachfront resort I’m feeling pretty content with the week so far [the job occasionally has its ups]. It isn’t always like this, and I certainly don’t always feel like this either. I’ve decided to start writing more when I feel this way as well as those times I need to pour my emotions out on paper [screen] when things aren’t so rosy [way more of those waffling posts in the pipeline too though, ].
In the past few months I’ve been feeling like I have not been utilising my full potential. I’m sure we all feel this way at times, and it can sometimes take people and events to act as catalysts of change, and surroundings to get you inspired once again and back on the course you are meant to be on. For me, i live constantly in a “i’ll do it tomorrow” world. Snooze button my BFF under those sheets. “Just 5 more minutes”. I delay and prolong everything until i am under the utmost pressure to get shit done [so basically 30 mins before a deadline is due, or 10 minutes rush before that dreaded wake up call, where you can usually find me scrambling around my room in a frantic frenzy, having those around me fear for their lives with the contents of my suitcase being flung from every inch of the room]. Guaranteed, this is not the most practical way to fly through life, or the best for your sanity, but hey I’ve managed to wing it this far. Just.
I decided to get the wheels in motion, out of this comfort rut & start utilising my creative hand. I’ve devoured enough ‘self help’ books, I’ve read countless motivational, empowering, go get em’ articles & I follow numerous figures for ‘inspo’ on social media platforms. But in the end I realised I’m just procrastinating and basically living my ideal world through those of others and watching them do what I know I would love to do, and also know what I CAN do. And then, feeling low, *absolute shite to be brutally honest* for comparing myself to those people, those people I chose to follow. I decided to stop buying yet another self help book with carefully thought out guides on how to change your life, how by reading the pages in this book you can transform your entire being basically on this planet Earth. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate the message most of these books are trying to convey. However it’s all about the doing, rather than scouring Amazon in search of the next one!
I love writing, I love travelling, I LOVE buying clothes, and especially from vintage shops… and yes I’m rather known to take the odd picture [hundred] here and there so now it’s truly time to start fulfilling that dream. Life begins at the end of your comfort zone ! That’s at least one ‘goodread’ quote I do love despite it being heavily overused [and the meaning usually largely overlooked]. It took me 30 secs max to google a photography course in Dubai and find one suitable for my need. Something I’ve wanted to do for years. Not only did I also manage to find dates available to fit my schedule, I was enrolled within five minutes and realised the course location was a 5 minute drive from my house. It took me all of 2 minutes to set up an Etsy Shop for an upcoming vintage clothing, thrifting venture side gig. An idea thats been in the pipeline for a lengthy period of time, which kind of ties in all of my hobbies & passions. Do what you love right?
Ouch.
I feel like I arrived a little late to this party but as cliche as it sounds there really is no such thing as too late. Not for the creatives, those in search for the off beaten track lifestyle, the ones who didn’t conform to the way life is mapped out in the textbooks, US who deviated from the ‘norm’. It can take years to find what you really want to do with your time, some people may change the course of their path several times before finding that passion they can then turn in to a job.
Disclaimer; THATS GONNA BE ME ^
Slightly swaying off subject here, but essentially after last weeks fun filled week doing the things I love in Dubai along with my friend who’s also in the same mindset as me. We came to realise the only thing that holds us back from going full steam ahead is fear! Fear that your not good enough, and that there is already so many people doing what you’re doing in the market and there’s no gap.
Wrong.
This is seriously an epidemic amongst those with a creative heart, and those with something to say.
I’ve read this book countless times, Elizabeth Gilbert, Big Magic and i shall end this post with this beautifully inspiring message.
“Creativity itself doesn’t care at all about results – the only thing it craves is the process. Learn to love the process and let whatever happens next happen, without fussing too much about it. Work like a monk, or a mule, or some other representative metaphor for diligence. Love the work. Destiny will do what it wants with you, regardless.”- Elizabeth Gilbert
Destiny will do what it wants with you, regardless.